my subconscious have changed
since the events of last 30days or so
I use to be fill with the guilt and regret
guilt and regret on the condition of how I lost you
and manage to fuck up every chance of getting back with you
I was trapped in a little world of my own
keep thinking that I can be with you again
even in my dying hours
all i had was flashs of memories
of us
Life have given me a 2nd chance
and I don’t want to be trapped by guilt and regret anymore
I don’t want to die alone
with nothing my own little world in my head
I’ve been trying to find the words to say this
for a while now
and I think I can finally let it out now.
I am finally able to let you go
I still love you
but there’s nothing I can do to undo what I did
to change who we have become
but what I can do
is to release myself from guilt and regret
and this little world in my head
the world of "what if"s
the world of yesteryears
and simly move on
and to finally respect your choices
to be fair……for everyone
Maybe
I never walked out of that hospital
Maybe none of this is real
maybe I just a ghost trying to make peace with myself
so can finally R.I.P
Never to be trapped again by guilt and regret
of things we can no longer change
